I Feel BLUE :/

مقبرة السفن اللي بالدوحه للي ما يعرف المكان اللي قصدي عنه .. يم المدينه الترفيهيه في بحر وهالبحر متروس سفن قديمه .. هذي السفن اما تكون لمهربين داشين الديره او مخالفين لما يصيدونهم ياخذون السفن منهم ويعطون كل سفينه رقم و ينسونهم هناك يوم يومين.. سنه سنتين..

 انا وقعت بغرام المكان من بديت هواية التصوير .. كل مره اروح هناك اشوف شي جديد للتصوير مع ان السفن نفسهم مايتغيرون

المهم .. هذي كانت اول مره اروح الدوحه بالليل ,, وكان صج شعور ثاني شعور غير…وانا واقفه اصور سمعت  احد يناديني التفت ما لقيت احد .. رديت اصور وانا مندمجه بالتصوير سمعت اللي يقول لي انا ترى مو مجرد رقم انا لي قصه وتاريخ لفيت ما  لقيت ما في غير السفينه رقم 13 وراي .. قلت لها تكلميني .. قالت لي اشوفج تين وتروحين وغيرج ايي و يروح مايهمكم الا الصوره والزاويه ولا احد فيكم فكر فيني من وين يايه ولي متى قاعده .. انا صراحه انبهرت من كلامها و قلت لها انا بسمع قصتج كلي اذان صاغيه … ردت علي : انا سفينة صيد يايه من ايران .. الصيادين الله يهداهم طمعو وبدال ما يصيدون بديرتهم ويبيعون سمجهم هناك قالو خلينا نروح الكويت ديرة الخير .. واحنا بطريجنا لي الكويت ما وعينا الا خفر السواحل حوالينا نزلو الصيادين كلهم وردوهم ديرتهم وانا خلوني هني وحيد لا انيس ولا صديق .. اشوف الياي واللي رايح ومحد يسمعني .. محد يحس بوحدتي 

حسيت بقشعريره وانا اتكلم مع السفينه .وكلامها معاي خلاني افكر … في ناس وايد حوالينا يضحكون ويطلعون ومحد يدري ان لكل واحد منهم قصه ولكل واحد منهم حزن مدفون .. يضحكون وقلبهم يبجي .. يمارسون حياتهم وهمو يحاولون يتعايشون مع الالم .. المره اليايه اللي تشوفون فيها ناس تضحك .. فكرو شوي

وصلني هذا اللنك لسايت  عندما تصفحته اذهلني .. هل وصل كتابنا لهذا المستوى .. هل وصل اساتذتنا واصحاب شهادة الدكتوراه لهذا المستوى .. تسرقون الكلاو وتنسبونه لانفسكم .. اين الأخلاق واين الدين .. المشكله ان من بينها استاذ شريعه والأخر نائب برلماني لحركه اسلاميه .. يتوقف قلمي هنا واترككم مع السايت

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Dear Dad

When i lie on my bed at night after a long day, all what i feel is MISSING YOU

I look at our picture near my bed and i close my eyes, i try to remember that moment

I try to feel the great moment that we shared, the laugh that we had, and your smile

Sometime, it is hard to capture the feeling of that moments

And the miss you feelings is just overwhelming

What comfort me is to grab your shirt and wear it

I just feel SAVE

I just feel YOU

And the last thing i remember is my tears running like a waterfall

I pray for your soal and i fall into sleep

Good Night

بدا اليوم وخلص

وانا لي الحين محتاره

لي الحين اكتب وامسح

ماني لاقيه الكلام اللي يليق لج

**************

تهرب الكلامات مني

تتردد يدي بالكتابه

يخفق قلبي

اتردد

لا استطيع ان اعبر لكي مافي داخلي

لا استطيع ان اتكلم عنك وما تمثلينه لي في حياتي

انتي بدايتي ونهايتي

انتي حياتي ومماتي

انتي اساس يومي

اذا غضبتي علي .. انتهى يومي

واذا رضيتي عني .. زها يومي

لا اذكر يوما مر علي لم تزيديه نورا

ولم تشعيه حنانا

امي

امي

امي

احبج

Introduction

Never Ever judge someone from the first impression

I learn this lesson by the hard way

I thought that all people are just like me, what u see is what u get

Daaaah, am wrong, so let me tell u my story

(1)

Date: Friday, 14th March,2008

Time: 2:30 p.m

Activity: Safari trip - Dubai

I was waiting with my brother in the hotel lobby for the driver to come

This is my second time to go Safari in Dubai, we choose Hammer car this time

We where expecting Emirate guy to be our driver like last time

But, we saw  Indian guy greets us and directed us to the car

He told us that we need to wait five  minutes for the Japanese couple

(2)

Inside the car, he introduced us to each other and told us the plan

He said we can call him Mr.J

I was so disappointing once i saw the driver

He was so calm, quiet, how come he will drive for us!?!

Me and my bro start 7ash o t7l6em for some reason i felt he understand us

Yet i continue expressing my feelings

Cause i don`t like people who know my language and pretend that they don`t speak it .. just to listen to us gossiping.. so i gave him what he want

We had a stop at petrol station with a small supermarket

He was so nice and polite, he always opened and closed the door for me

And ask me if am ok and if i need anything

(3)

He then drove the car to a location in the desert and wait the other

I told to myself this is the time for chet chat with him

I asked him how long have u been doing car driving in the desert

and he said not long !!

thats it, u should impress me !!!

Then i told him that this is my second time.. i love adventure.. blah blah blah ..and i wanna see CRAZY things

(4)

After 40 minutes ride to reach the place

The adventure start

(5)

I don`t know how quiet person can be so crazy and funny

He was the master and we had a great time there

My brother try to tease him if he can do this or that

and he did it

We claim a high sand mountain and it was woooooooow

What a wonderful, excited time we had

All what u hear is me and Tamami ” the Japanise lady” screaming

I really appricate these time .. it was so fun

(6)

At 7:30 pm

was our last stop in a big open place for dinner, henna , camal riding ,music and dancing

we stayed there till 9:30 pm and it was time to go back

(7)

While we where driving back

we start to chat with Mr.J, and finally he opened up with us

I realized that he is a muslim and Pakistani not indiean

Mr.J confused me, his name is Jaber

he said if i say my name u will know am Pakistani !

He told me that he drove for long long time

And he always come here with his friend

And talked about himself, family, culture and about everything

Closer

For some people it is difficult to open up and talk, so don`t miss understand them

Mr.J and his car

Once i entered my room after i arrived from the airport, i noticed that there is some paper hanging in my mirror. I came closer to see what it is, and it was a picture of a bird looking at his reflection in the mirror…

I was so touched for that picture.. not because it is  beautifully captured only, but what touch me the most that my mom while she was reading her newspaper saw something that she knew that i like and remembered me… and not that only, she took the time to cut it and hang it in my room..

THANK YOU MAMA

8-15^th March,2008

Sometime things go too smoothly, and sometime it just the opposite

This trip to Dubai start with a delay two weeks, we said no harm

We faced some issues regarding hotel reservation, and finally it work out

Once we arrive to Dubai, I knew that I didn’t feel good but I said maybe from the plane

Next day, I felt like my blood pressure is low, but I start to see the positive side

On Monday, I was in the emergency room with drip in my hand and feeling dizzy

What I remember from that day that I slept all the day from the injection

The day after, I decided that I will enjoy the day; I dressed up and went out with my sis and bro

I was dezzy and slow,i couldn`t feel anything, but I pretended to be normal

The next day, I did the same but this time once I went to the hotel

What I remembered is that all my body was num and I faint

After that i wake up and there was  Iraqi doctor talking to me

My sis called the reception and they bring doctor to see me

He told me that I have a problem with my ear that make me dizzy and faint

He gave me medication and he told me that it will take some days to feel good

I HATE being sick when I am traveling

I HATE being sick without my mom around me

I HATE being sick and waste my time in the bed while traveling

On Thursday, we changed our hotel, we went to Mina Al-Salam “ my fav. place in Dubai”

Changing the place was a good thing, make me forget how sick I am

I enjoyed time there, and there I start feel that I am traveling

My mission is to feel good by Friday to be able to go to SAFARI

And I did it, it was my only memory that I had from this trip

I will talk about it later

Just for now I want to document my trip

اليوم : الأربعاء 5-3-2008

الوقت: الساعه 5:45 مساء

رن التلفون .. ولا صديقتي تقول لي : وينج ! وصل ! عندج 10 دقايق ولا يسكرون الباب

انا : ها !! انا بالبيت .. عطيني 10 دقايق واوصل

و هم تأخرت

المراد .. رويشد  طلع كريم واحنا نستاهل

صديقتي كلمته وهو رايح يتدرب علشان حفلة هلا فبراير ليوم الخميس

 وقالت له انا معجباتك ونبي  نصوره وقال حياكم

ولما تأخرت ما زعل ولا تضايق

بالعكس كان صدره وسيع علينا

المهم

انا شفته ونسيت الكلااام لوووووووووووووول

انا اذكر اني خربطت بالكلام

اهم شي اني صورته وتصورت معاه وبعد ماخلصت

قال لنا تقدرون تقعدون بالبروفه

شقول الكلام يخلص هني

انا طاير من الفرحه طاير

شعور غريب وحلو

انك تقعد بالمكان نفسه مع مطربك المفضل وهو يغني مع فرقته ويتدرب

شعور غير عن شعورك وانت قاعد بالمسرح

هني تقدر تحس فيه وتشوف الجانب الثاني

شلون يكلم فرقته .. شلون يعصب ويضحكونه

بدا اب سلااااااااام الله وبعدين خاااااااااااسر وبعدها يا بو ناصر

وانا قاعده انطر وانطر يغني اغنيتي المفضله

وكل شوي اقول حق صديقتي قرصيني واهي تقرصني وانا اقول مو حلم

وبعدها غنى لاتعتذر

الله ..انا اقول يارب تغلطون علشان يغنونها مره ثانيه (نحيسه)لوووووووووووول

اهم شي انهم عادوها يمكن 5 مرات

وانا الكشره اشكبرهاااااااااااااا

 احلا شي اني كنت مندمجه اغني وياه واهو طاح علي وضحك

ضحك علي وا لي ما يهم

  بس المهم اني كنت قاعده وياه ويا فرقته وحققت حلمي

الساعه 8 طلعت .. ما حبيت اثقل عليهم

كانت احلا ساعتين  

حبيت اشكرك على سعت صدرك ..واستقبالك الحلو لأثنين من معجباتك .. ودمك الخفيف معاهم .. استمتعت بوقتي معاك

Sami Yousif  is a British composer/singer/musician who born into a musical family, thus music played an integral part in his life. Sami is also a devout practicing Muslim who sees songs as a means of promoting the message of Islam and encouraging the youth to be proud of their religion and identity.

 http://www.samiyusuf.com/

I just wanna said a few words about him, for the people who just know him by one song on TV, i wanna say that he is more than that. Sami know how to use his passion in music to deliver a huge message to the world. He is just 28 years old and he manage to be well known in the world as MUSICIAN that Sang for Islam. He choose a path that is not easy to walk through, although he success. He came from the other side of the world and lived in open country “London”, yet he didn`t follow the Western life.

I went to his concert last Monday, and i was amazed from the mixed type of people that attend the concert. I went there to tell him that I support you . And i also was stunned from his personalty that glow in the theater. He is a role model for the new generation

God bless you